Jumping into Thyself

My Rant about my first bungee jump:

So finally I did something out of my ultra long bucket list.

Bungee jumping.

And that for twice in 2 days........ I won't lie, it was scary when I looked down into the abyss and my heart was pounding like anything.

I can say it was something close to dying and no fear, work stress, financial problem, love & sex, care of parents and fight with siblings or coworkers were there for million miles in my mind.

It was me tied with a rope in upside down position. I am used to inversions as I am crazy about learning handstands, still, a minor thought of hanging with Bungee chord in the middle of nowhere was nothing less than intimidating. Here comes the true support of bungee masters of Jumping heights. They ensured me that I won't die at least by jumping from this cliff, so death is not an option, only jumping off this clip is.

I never show them that I am afraid, but they read it from miles and that's the sign of a master. I was tied with immaculate precision and was suggested to jump down like I do in a pool. Luckily I have started learning swimming a week back so I have seen how people dive into a pool, though I still am trying to float in the pool with many futile efforts.

So let's come back to jump and as I was told my dear friend Kamal that Titanic pose is best and no-brainer so I chose that and came into position. When jump master said three.....Two...One...I suddenly felt I am numb but it was time to take a leap of faith and I was already in the air with absolutely no mind state. First-time rope got taught and I felt shudder through my spine and then I was again in the air for almost same height and then again down...It happened thrice and then I was hanging from the chord like a rat being carried by an eagle for lunch.

Eventually, this joy ride got over when two sane people with a long bamboo stick pulled me away from my misery. Jokes apart first time I felt what fear of death is, what is the meaning of no mind and absolute freedom. Freedom from thoughts, people, and my own self. No perceptions, no ideas, and no prejudices. It was me with myself.

It is true that I was afraid and for first few microseconds in the air I was planning about my afterlife, but then it was the most pleasurable moment of my life. One must try bungee jumping once in a lifetime and if can afford it then as many times as possible because no amount of yoga, meditation, and exercises in an ac room can teach you about yourself what few seconds of bungee can.

And I am telling you with years of experience in different meditation practices, the study of spiritual text and what not. If you are done with theory or illusory peace then go and jump you dumbass. I jumped twice and I will keep jumping until I will complete all the bungee spots across the globe.

Trust me it is not an addiction, it is the seduction of the highest quality.

As Tyler Durden says in Fight club

"Self-improvement is masturbation. Now self-destruction is the answer."